Wanted to see a darker line today so I took another test because it's my 25th birthday and it was still so faint. By the time I left work today, I was bleeding lightly. Bought some more tests and got a negative on a digital. Started sobbing hysterically in our bathroom and called my husband who came straight home. Have barely stopped crying all afternoon and evening now that I'm bleeding heavier almost like a period though I have no normal period symptoms like cramps. 

I'm just so sad - devastated is more like it. I want so badly to be a mom and we just started TTC on Christmas Day so I know it hasn't been very long but three positive tests and then nothing? And on my birthday of all days. I just feel heartbroken and upset. My husband has been great emotional support all day, but it's just so hard. I was only 4 weeks 1 day but I guess I was already so emotionally attached. 

I don't know if it's too late to throw in the towel or if I should call my doctor tomorrow for a blood test. I don't think there's anything they can do now if it's already miscarrying but I'm trying to hang onto any sliver of hope. 😥😥