I recently just cut my boyfriend out of my life. He was manipulative, abusive,cheated on me, disrespected me, took money from me and so on. I was supposed to move in with him, and 1.5 hours away from everything I've built from the ground up being here in my hometown my entire life. I reversed my 2 weeks (luckily my work let me stay) and decided to stay with my parents since I had no money saved for an apartment. 

Ever fucking since; I've been so mad with everything. Everything with him; the $1,760 debt he left me with, the fact I don't have someone to say goodnight to, the fact I gave MY ALL into somebody to know he never loved me all he wanted me for was money. I left because I was UNHAPPY. I left because of abuse. I thought leaving him I would be happy. I constantly find myself tired, upset, and irritable. Seeing all this Valentine's Day shit (I work retail) knowing I don't have someone to claim as mine, knowing that I'm not one of "those girls" who was taken to dinner, proposed to and so on. It absolutely fucking SUCKS. I have my days where I don't think about my ex then I have my days that I do. Only because I miss him. I haven't relied on anyone to feel sorry for me as I feel like I can handle shit on my own. I'm now moving it of my moms house, into a 3 bedroom home with roommates in the hopes of the next year I can get into my own apartment. My work is trying to level up their store and that has been ultimately stressful. We've spent night after night trying to perfect everything. In my opinion we didn't prepare  early enough to pass the first time. Everywhere in my life I seem stressed. 1/2 of the friends I have don't offer advice/don't care to listen. Yet I'm always there for them. I'm a 22 year old almost 23 year old girl and I feel like I don't have any of my life together. I'm sorry this just seems like a sappy story. Then I have people tell me "it's just a break up" or "get over it no one cares" I'm downright sick of it. No one gets how I feel. Idk if it's my period or my emotions but I'm tired of feeling crap. /: