Too much pressure on my partner?

Have been with my husband for 10 years and married for 2 months. We both really want to have a family but have decided it's not the right time yet. I finished a uni degree at the end of last year and haven39t managed to get a job in the industry yet, plus he is an apprentice and we are only just about to move into a rental since I managed to get some part time work.

I have taken a couple of hpt in the last two months because I stuffed up my cycle on our honeymoon by taking progesterone to delay AF. We were both so disappointed when they came back BFN.

The problem now is I don39t want to wait because I don39t know how long it will take to get a proper job and then when I do it will still be 12 months before I can take leave but he wants to wait.

This is causing me to leave all the contraception up to him and making him feel guilty when he breaks it out.

He says he doesn39t want to see me upset the way I was when it didn39t happen, but I am still hoping for an accident.

Am I being selfish for leaving all the responsibility to him?