Sat here &&' Cried to myself . I'm really getting discouraged and starting to feel like blahhh and depressed. I'm 2 days overdue and I just want my baby . I want my body . I want to get everything over with nd just be happy wit my baby .

In my mind (FTM) I could have never seen myself pregnant Im scared she won't come out healthy or alive (idk why I think this way ) I' can't picture myself holding my own baby and being a Mommy as bad as I want to . (&& idk why I think these awful thoughts) .

I give up on trying anything to get her out , She will truly come when she is ready . I'd hate to be induced tho because of the hospital that has to do it I rather have my baby in a car... I hate that hospital its unsanitary nasty their staff is lazy nd Everyone I've EVER known gets a C Section because their so impatient