I need love help please im confused

Okay where do i begin..im a white 22 year old female i have a son of 2 and im with my bg of 3 years its his son...and our relationship has been rocky i found out last year that he has been doing drugs etc so i legt him we broke up for 4 months so know we r dating again i love him believe me i do..but a part of me feels like i want to just give up on us and struglw on my own but i keep asking myslf what about my son??? Worst part is i met this guy on a chat site and i like him alot also he is indian muslim and my parnts dont know this but i find him attravtive even though he is muslim....im confused and scared what my parents and ppl will think