Last night I was talking to my girlfriend while she was having a bad night... I just didn't know it was THAT bad. I tried to help her stay distracted so she couldn't think about it... but she did it. She did it anyway and when she sent me the picture of her bloody wrists, I thought I was going to be sick. I couldn't see past my tears. I had to sit down on the toilet lid in case my legs gave out. I was terrified. I wanted it to be fake. Wanted the day to rewind. It's all because of that one person I told her to stop talking to a while back... If she had just fucking LISTENED TO ME, DAMN IT THIS WOULDN'T HAVE HAPPEND AND I WOULDN'T HAVE WOKEN UP FEELING LIKE SHIT ON VALENTINE'S. I wish I could have been there. I wish I could have held her. Made her feel like she was okay. That I'm here for her. That I love her. I would have done anything. Anything to prevent that moment. Now the image is stuck there in my mind. I keep seeing it and I'm still shaking. I wish I didn't have to wake up and remember that. I'm sorry... I'm so sorry. Please don't do it again. Please.