Sometimes I feel like the only woman on the planet who has not enjoyed being pregnant. Everybody always talks about how great and "magical" it is, but I just have not felt that way. I will be 13w tomorrow and so far it's been not fun. I had a previous MC so this time around have been super anxious and worried about every little thing. On top of that have been sick non-stop. Nauseas all day long, exhausted, either constipated or having diarrhea, headaches and sinus issues, hard time sleeping, etc. And worst of all, we've barely told anyone because we've been so scared of losing it again. So even though we've had 1 ultrasound at 9w and got to see our baby, it still doesn't feel real. We have our screening in a few days and I'm convinced we'll get bad news. Praying not but I can't stop the bad thoughts from creeping in. We want this baby so much. And I do have moments where I let myself get excited about it. But I just want the baby to be here already. I don't like not having any control over what's happening inside me. I hate feeling crappy all the time, but the minute my symptoms lessen I worry that means something is wrong. LOL. My poor husband. He's got a long few months ahead. ;)