Can't sleep

So it's 5 am and I can't sleep. I napped a little bit can't sleep. For the past two weeks I have been "spotting"

A couple times a day I will wipe and get a piece of toilet paper that has either orange or pink discharge. Sometimes its just one piece covered sometimes its 2 or 3.

Non of it was bright red, non of it was with cramping, I wasn't really worried about it because I heard that some women spot throughout their whole pregnancy.

Well I go to my first official OB appointment at 10 am and now I am scared to death something is wrong with the baby. I keep asking what if they don't hear a heart beat, what if I lost this one too. I can't stop stressing about it. I know its a 50/50 shot but when I went to the ER a couple weeks ago *severe constipation with mild spotting* the ultrasound tech didn't even let me see the baby even after I asked 3 times. And this appoinment the ultrasound tech won't even be there because shes off that day for a funeral or something like that.

I'm so scared I'm going to lose the baby and not even get to see it one time. I've been in tears for 2 hours because of it. I'm so scared, I'm so worried.