cannot believe this is happening again

In June of 2016 I went into preterm labor and lost my son. I am 19+5 and started bleeding very heavily. I rushed to the er and had my high risk doctor come to examine me. While my cervix was still long it was open a bit and my bag was coming through my cervix. They hAve me on medicine to relax my contractions and have my legs raised to hopefully get the bag in and do a cerclage in the morning. I just can't believe I'm so close to losing our baby again. I need prayers please ladies