I thought I was the only one who thought this way! I've always felt like that I'm never going to live a long life. (I'm almost 26). I think it's mainly the fear of wondering and not knowing how I will die that gets to me the most..😕😔

I've always had a fear of death ever sense I was little and was told "one day it's your turn too". I more fear death itself. As in I'm afraid of dying in a car crash or drowning, falling to my death ect, more because I've always wanted a peaceful death. Like in my sleep, but it scared me one day that I might not wake up. It used to give me such bad anxiety, that one day maybe driving in the car with my mom that we won't make it back home or something. Then I got put on anxiety medicine for that and other reasons and it helped soo much. I was abled to get in the car with my mom and be out all day and not be wondering when will it be "My time". It also used to scare me thinking of the day I get older and my mom aging and not being their no more, more because she is the only one I've ever had (she's a single mother and my whole support) that used to scare the shit out of me. But as I got older and since I've been with my husband (he was a huge support for me when I was down and in a dark place thinking about it) I've come to see death differently, as I'm still sometimes scared of it (and always pray to God that when he does take me, please make it peaceful) but I've calmed down about it so much more. I think of it as a shitty circle of life 😪

I go through stages sometimes this takes over my life its horrible i wont go out cause i think that day will be the day its just awful:(