Frozen in fear.

So, I'm 5 weeks pregnant after an ectopic and 2 miscarriages. Our last miscarriage was the morning of our first ultrasound, so we never got to see our little one. I'm trying to be optimistic and not stress myself out, but I was walking today and just happened to see the word "miscarriage" written on a wall. I just froze and stared at it for what felt like forever. I had to pinch myself to stop looking. I don't know what to do. I'm beyond terrified. I just want our baby to be okay. I hope this isn't an omen. I really can't take losing another life.