I'm so sad. this is breaking my heart :(

Lillian
I am so sad I don't know where to begin. I had a vast array of faint positive tests recently. Although I am 12 dpo...the faint positives have disappeared. It seems to me I have had a chemical. It is so sad, and making me wonder what I did wrong. But it is also making me wonder if I am not out yet. Like I am hanging on to a sliver of hope. I don't know what to think or do. This is hurting me and making me depressed. Maybe I should wait to see if af comes but I am losing hope...please if you see something I don't...and be honest....please let me know...