am I a horrible person??

Tess • 20, artist, hipster, dreamer, adventurer
Quick backstory: I met this guy (we'll call him jax) who was a friend of my boyfriend atm and I was into him from the moment I met him. Over the corse of the two years I knew him he became one of my best friends. But then I got dumped, a few weeks later I threw a party, got drunk, and totally made out with jax. Everyone saw it, but I was drunk and no one thought anything of it. But it was one of the most amazing kisses I've had. The same night he kissed one of my girl friends. They ended up dating a few days later. I talked to jax about the kiss and he said he can't be that person in my life he can't be anything more than my best friend "okay" I thought and I backed up. 
But I kepts falling deeper for him (he's still dating my friend) and the other night I started feeling confident and bold, so I told jax how I felt. And he said he felt the same way about me, he just couldn't before because of my ex being his friend, out of respect he wouldn't. So now jax, still dating my friend, knows I have feelings for him and vice versa and we've got this thing but he can't bring himself to dump his girlfriend. Soo...
1) idk what to do
2) am I horrible for putting myself in this position, for wanting them to break up?
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Ch

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From what I've seen with situations like this, I'd be willing to bet that he is never going to break up with his girlfriend for you. You are not a horrible person at all from what you've said, as long as you haven't actually done anything with him while he's dating his girlfriend. I think the best thing would be to keep your distance - you know how you would feel if you were dating him and he started talking to another girl about having feelings for her. I'm sorry you're going through this. 

Sa

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I don't think you are an horrible person. You're just in love and he is too. Shit timing but you both realized it. It's not fair to the girl that he stays with her while thinking about you and being in love with you. He should break up with her in my opinion.I wish you all the best

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Tess • Feb 20, 2017
Thank you☺️