Advice needed !!! (Sex/rape)😢

Kaylin
Well last year in April the 18th of April. My boyfriend at the time raped me..well he did not ask and I did not notice it was his dick, I thought it was his fingers stupid I know😴 this was my first time of doing it. When I seen him moving his thighs I pushed him off me I got so Upset I can't forget it one bit I don't know what to do!! He said if I tell anyone they will laugh at me😨😥