My heart is breaking

Sarah

So hubby and I have an appt at a fertility clinic set up for March 3rd. He just got the results from his third semen analysis... 250,000 per milliliter... the previous numbers were a little better but not what is considered "normal". I'm on my fourth cycle of clomid, day 15, and we have been baby dancing every other day since AF ended.. also using preseed this cycle.

But his count is so low that I know the clinic will say <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a> is our only option... we've never wanted to do <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a>. I know I could do <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">iui</a> with donor sperm, but we don't want to do that either. So I'm going to call and cancel our appt.

We are going to save up for a year for a down payment on a house. Then after purchasing a home we will start the process of adoption, both private and foster to adopt are on the table.

Side note... somebody once said if adoption is an option, why would donor sperm be any different? What do you all think about that?

So anyhow back to where I was... my heart is breaking a little bit. We want to be parents, and raise independent strong smart, and slightly rebellious, beautiful children. But I guess it's not in our cards to do it the biological way.