mixed feelings

Clare
I had my second miscarriage end of December, and have found out this morning I'm pregnant again, I thought I was ready but just feel so mixed, I was feeling so much better and had forgotten how much worse the hormones make it. I guess I'm just so scared it's going to go wrong again, I really didn't cope well after the 2nd. I haven't even told my husband yet as he'd left for work when I took the test and he's such a worrier I'm not even sure how he'll react, just seems so crappy that we don't get that excitement of having our first child now as we'll always be worried.