We've been through a lot and both of us are being fairly cautious about starting again. I don't really know how to tell him because even though a baby would not be good right now I'm devastated at the same time I'm kind of glad (I feel horrible that I feel this way) because I'd never be able to have an abortion and this way I don't have to deal with a pregnancy/baby. I don't know how to explain that to him. I don't want to lose him again- that was the worst time of my life without him. And I'm so afraid of telling him. He's amazing and deep down I know he'll try to understand and he'd never be mean to me about this. But I don't even know where to start. Any advice would be very appreciated. Thank you!