Feel like I've had enough.

Brandi-lea • Khaleesi-May Dizney Van Vliet - my precious daughter born on 23.6.15 👶🏼🌸
Took two first response tests today and two lines appeared on both. They were faint but they were there. My boyfriend even saw them. Well, I rush out and purchase two clear blue digi tests. Well, big mistake. After waiting the dreaded 3 minutes watching the little timer flash at me it came up with not pregnant. I'm only 7dpo. I know it's so early but I can't help myself. I'm a big worrier. I was hoping I had ovulated a lot earlier and maybe my predictions for O were wrong but nope I am only 7dpo and why I tested so early I don't know? I just couldn't help myself. It's still to early. I had what I think was implantation bleeding yesterday. No blood since and only a small patch of blood. But I jug can't seem to finish this two week wait. If it turns out I get a bfn this month and AF does arrive I will have definitely learnt my lesson this month.  This is the first month I have ever got so crazy with testing and I really think that buying tests has made it worse because I have a pack of 45 one steps so it's so easy to just use them everyday! It's driving me mad and it's making me lose hope but I know I shouldn't worry and it's just my head telling me otherwise. Just need to relax. Forcing myself to not test until AF is due at least.