Feeling Lonely

So a few months ago this boy who I thought was perfect and had been dating for a like a month or two broke up with me. He regretted it afterward and has been clawing after me trying to get me back for a while. Now finally he's over me. He was my first kissing my first make out in all of that non-serious stuff. Now I'm the only one in my friend group basically who is single and I have a lot of friends so it's just very uncomfortable for me. It's just weird because like everybody's fine that special someone. And I don't know I just been getting really lonely because I could see all my friends make out and not make out but just be intimate with each other and care for each other and just with a lot of my friends look at each other and just you know you still feel lonely. I just miss someone caring for me like he used to and although now he has gone on to do terrible terrible terrible things to me again again again even though we were broken up he just continues to hurt me. I miss the way he cared for me and the way he acted to me and the way he looked at me and hold me and love me even though I looks like shit a majority of the time. I miss having someone that would put there arms around me and just sit there and he would look at me just so nothing and the look in his eyes was so happy and wonderfilled even though he was watching me do nothing. Anyways I'm young and though I dispise him and all that he has done and continues to do to hurt daily, I miss having someone.