boy trouble

marissa
so there's this guy in my school who ive known since the fifth grade (we are in eighth grade now) and he's in my chorus class which means i see him everyday. anyway, i started liking him (like really having feelings for him) at the ending of seventh grade. i don't know why but my best friend decided to tell him that i like him and he said he doesnt feel the same way. he didn't say that exactly, but he kind of just implied it by saying "i don't want a relationship right now". we are still friends to this day but for some reason my head is telling me to move on from him but my heart is telling me to stay. i just can't seem to let him go (by the way he is like one of my best guy friends and we talk all the time). but i know this is silly but im scared of being friendzoned. also every time i bring up the whole "you're my crush" thing to him, he just ignores it. why? im so confused honestly. also sometimes i catch myself being jealous when he's around other girls? overprotective best friend maybe? the point is, i still really have feelings for him. i one day wanna be in a relationship with him but i feel like he's gonna judge me for that bc he is kinda picky sometimes lol. but idk why but ive had dreams about him where he'd ask me to the dance and stuff. and i know again this is silly but i see a future with him.