Bitter sweet

So yesterday we had our 12 week scan and it was with a heavy heart that we had to say goodbye to one twin. Obviously I am grateful for one but yeah I'm heartbroken.

I just think nature has a way of saying it's not meant to be but it was horrid seeing the little body not moving in the scan. I'm just sick of heartache after miscarriages, and <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">ivf</a> fails, bio chemical pregnancies and embryo transfers. Yes I know some women can never have children. Sadly I just felt like it was too good to be true. Having one is a miracle and I'm delighted but two would have been "special" and I just feel that for once we deserved to be "special" xx I pray this goes to plan and I'm gonna try and move on and be positive. I have a little one inside me and I'll do whatever I can to make him or her have the best time in there xx