Back pain after bowel movement?

Moregan

Whats happening to me? DX

I feel like when i went to the bathroom i had no control, when i pushed nothing gave. And then all the sudden my insides did a weird dance number, what i would think a contraction will be like, forcing out i guess what i havent been able to pass, and now my lower back is killing me. I know its a gross topic but i want to make sure I'm having a health concern. Is it normal? I feel violated by my own body.