This pregnancy is a mistake

Here's my story I was put on bed rest in the hospital over a month. I finally came home today. I was so excited to be outside breathing in the fresh air and back in society. My time in the hospital was extremely emotional. I'm actually feeling miserable that I don't want this anymore, I want my old life back. I think I'm going to have the babies and then leave them. That's the place I'm at now. I feel like this is one biggest mistakes I've made. How many felt this way?