I will survive.....

I sometimes feel like I am a failure. I wish that my body could do what other women's bodies seem to do so easily (I use this flippantly because when you are struggling with fertility it does feel like everyone can have a baby easily except you). I hate that my body tricks me into believing that a baby is growing inside me with every sore boob and stomach twinge. My anal/list making self can't bear that I have no control over when or even if this will happen.