I was an idiot! God was preparing me and I didn't see it till now.

When I lived in my old house in like June and July I would stay up at night and throw myself into a complete panic over the thought of losing either one of my grandmother's or any family member at all. The thought of my grandmother's not being in my life frightened me so, so badly!! Little did I know that God was warning me and preparing me for last August... My very best friend and grandmother passed away very, very unexpectedly. She went in for a very minor back surgery and did extremely well for the whole thing and was in recovery. Idk why they didn't have her on monitors. She was diabetic, heavy, older, and had many health issues. My grandpa fell asleep next to her and woke up and looked at her and just knew.... She was gone... No one got to tell her goodbye, which is the hardest part for me. But looking back at it now I see how clearly God was trying to tell me what his plan was. He works in mysterious ways.... We just need to listen and pay attention... I know that now.