hi guys

I'm new to this app and community but would love to start being involved in discussions with others. I was in a strange relationship, it was toxic for sure and I know he sexually assaulted me a few times even if he doesn't agree that it was (even though it was clear and I said no). Nonetheless it's over but it made me more aware of sexual education because..I mean I wasn't ready for what happened between us. I didn't have 'sex' but other things took place as well as things he'd say like 'you're gonna have to go on the pill because I don't want a piece of latex between us'. And I didn't know it was possible to be raped orally until you know, it happened. I just felt really insecure whenever he made decisions of his own and I realized I didn't know enough to say much. So here I am, reading it all and telling myself over and over it's okay.