So we had unprotected sex, I thought I should had  been fine since I was on the depo shot for about 6 months prior. I had stop my shot (that was do on December 2016) so catch up to March we had sex on the 18. A week later that we hooked up again on the 25 he told me he had come inside me. This time we had protected sex. I got so scare but since I had not had my period since September 2016 I just blowed it of...... here comes Aprils fools day (just 2 weeks later) I go to see my obgyn for a regular pap to find the news that I was pregnant 😱 I could not believe it!!!! I could not have the baby this guy I just been knowing him for a few months. I talked to him about it and we both made the decision of not having it. By late April I had an abortion. I have been 💔about it ever since. But I knew it was my best choice. In July I met this awesome guy... like everything I have ever wanted I have with him. He has no kids ( I have a 7 yrs girl) he talk to me 3 months ago  about having a baby! I told him I was totally in for it, but now it's been 3 months and I have not been able to get pregnant 😭 do you guys think it's gods way of punishing me for what I did? I know that all life is precious and that I really really eff up but I will never do a thing like that ever its so damn heart breaking to even remember it.