Feeling fat and sad today.......rant warning

​I got some professional pics of my partner and I from last week. I looked so fat that it made me cry and I couldn't look at the pics. I'm size 16-18 Aus, so I am overweight but I normally feel big but not fat. I've always struggled to lose weight, even when clean eating and going to the gym 3-5 times per week, so just know that this is me. I cried on my way home from work and then came home and ate a heap of chocky - now I can see the problem I eat when I'm sad and while ttc I'm often sad. It's a vicious cycle!!