so i'm 15, i have social anxiety and i'm not doing so well rn. i'm a shy person with only three best friends, currently in a best friend group of five people. recently i've been going thru some rly tough times and i haven't been acting myself, i've been holding everything in and one day t all came out and one of the friends called me an "obnoxious" but we still are friendly towards each other. there is only one friend ik for sure cares abt me, she's always there for me but she's best friends with this other girl let's call her maya. recently maya has been showing lots of signs that she hates me like whenever i make a joke she always rolls her eyes and cuddles up to her other friend and always looks at me like "oh ur pathetic" and "grow up" even though she is fully aware i'm going thru a lot of things rn and trying to stay strong. the other friend in the friend group is a guy that i like and have mutual feelings with, he's a rly sweet guy who genuinely cares and we don't talk much bc i don't want him to see this side of me (insecure) but he always tries to make me feel better when he thinks i'm upset and makes me laugh and makes me feel included when i feel like the fifth wheel. ik for sure he doesn't hate me, but idk what else to do. i'm a shy person and i don't have other best friends,i have some rly rly nice friends ik but i don't want to join their squad be they already have one and i'm scared i'll be rejected. the girl maya always makes me feel so alone and excluded and terrible about myself but everyone loves her the group revolves around her. i don't want to leave the friend group i love them to death but i don't feel like they hate me (except maya she's constantly rude to me one time she found me crying in the bathroom and i didn't want anyone to see and i felt so vulnerable be im alone and parents divorce and she just rolled her eyes and made me feel so small and powerless) and everyone loves her. the only time she has been nice is when she needs advice or is crying her eyes out and i'm the only one there for her. i don't know if anyone hates me, i just feel like they don't really care abt me when i'm said. what do i do? i love them so much