5 months pregnant & I just found out.

So today I hit my breaking point!

I'm tired of getting negative test!

In tired of feeling like the one job as a woman that makes me, me I can't do!

And most of all I'm tired of irresponsible idiots getting pregnant when they are not mentally nor economically ready!!!!!

My husband and I for years said we will save and we set a budget and we said when we reach it we will start trying for a baby. We are two responsible people. We enjoy life but are economically and mentally prepared for a child. Well we have been trying for a while now to get pregnant. I have pcos so it makes it a bit difficult. My grandma and my family keep asking when will they see their first grandkids and when we plan to start our family and I don't want to tell them that we have been trying and nothing happens!!!

But today oh today was my breaking point see I have a friend who is 7 months prego this is her second one but both kids were accidents. First one she was dating the guy for 3 months they found out she was prego, they got married. Struggling to keep ends meet. They get pregnant again of just 1 TIME OF UNPROTECTED SEX! ONE TIME!

Then I find out today that my dear baby brother who has been with his gf less than a year is going to be a FUCKING DADDY! YES EVERYONE MY BROTHER IS GOING TO BE A DAD AT 21 YEARS OF AGE WORKING AT WALMART WITH a girl on her 2nd kid! She is 26 years and her first born is 4 years old. My brother has the mentality of a freaking 10 year old and he thinks he will be able to support this kid on a Walmart minimum wage! Nothing against walmart employees but they don't make all that much! To top it all fucking off she is 5 months! 5 months pregnant! He decided to tell my parents today! Today and my dad had to have surgery in 2 days! My dad is 61 and he doesn't need that kind of stress before his surgery!

But most of all why him? I'm so ready for a child and I have no luck. He wasn't looking for one and bam there it is! 😔😔😢😢

I'm so done! It's like God is playing some cruel joke and doing this!

I'm done I'm tired! I can't sleep! This is all that's in my mind. My husband tells me to stop worrying about being a aunt and worry about becoming a mom. I wanted to slap him and be like "wtf do you think I've been doing all this time?!"

I guess I don't really have a question or advice but just ranting and getting it off my chest.... not to mention i am first born and the only one married i was suppose to have the kids first.... now he is stealing my thunder.... actually a thunder ican't claim cuz i can't even get pregnant. I wrong to feel this way?

Sorry again for the rants....