Desperate

Momma H 💙
I've complained about this before I just need to vent a little. She just doesn't listen or respect that I'm his mother. She acts like a surrogated for her she is always telling us what when and how to do things or if we ask her not to do somthing she says oh it's fine like the other day she tried giving him chocolate. My hubby abs I decided our sons first sugar is going to be on his first birthday but she says oh a little chocolate won't kill him so I stepped in abs was like no he's not having sugar yet. Then she gets all huffy with me. She is always taking him off and away to were in not around and I'm sorry I just don't trust you after the chocolate crap. I feel that this is my first kid I want all the firsts I can get I feel that we deserve that being the ones who grew him and shoved him out my lady parts. I try to keep the peace for my husband but I can't take much I'm dealing with a lot personally and then I'm dealing with ppd and feeling like afailure as a mom with her always butting in it really gets to me more than normal like on a really personal level. We only see them once a week so I feel that I should be able to ignore it Better but like I said this is just the easiest thing to be mad at I can't really control any of my other issues at the moment. I just wish I could find a way to male her understand without it being a drama we used to get on so well but now o just feel like she's in my bubble in a major way. Idk I'm just in a really deep hole with some family stuff abs this ppd and I'm desperately trying to dig myself out and I feel like between her and life I'm just going deeper and deeper. My husband tries so hard I just can't seem to make him really understand where I'm coming from he's so much better at just letting thing role off his back and I'm just not that way. I just can't seem to find a way out I hardly even feel like myself anymore. I desperately wish hubby and I could move and be further away unfortunately his job is to Good to leave. I hate were we live which just doesn't really help matters lately