underweight to almost overweight

Emily
So I was technically anorexic at the age of 16 because of emotional problems that caused me to not eat. I have gained 30 lbs since and I'm 19 now. Idk how I feel about it. I miss being skinny and see myself as a gross now. Idk how to love my body without not eating. 
The first three photos are when I was skinny and the last three are recent. 30 lbs sounds like a lot and I think I gained it all in the wrong places.