A few days ago my husband apparently committed armed robbery. (He has NO previous crime history besides a speeding ticket). And now he appears to be on the run.. I haven't heard from him since the morning that the crime happened (Monday: 2/27). There's been police come by the house to ask me questions and investigators calling me. There's a warrant out for his arrest..

My life has turned into a complete nightmare.. I'm due in June and only just found out that I'll be raising the baby on my own.. I'm starting the process of a divorce because as much pain as it's going to cause, I know my daughter and I are better off without him. I'm going to start college again this fall to finish my degree so I can better support baby and I. But I will continue to work while taking classes online to support us in the meantime.

I can't believe this is what my life has turned into.. I'm trying to make the best of it and make sure that I can be able to give my little girl the life she deserves. But I can't stop feeling like I failed my daughter by not being able to give her a mom and a dad..

I posted anonymously because I'm embarrassed.. My family keeps trying to assure me that his actions don't reflect poorly on me, but I have a hard time believing that..

UPDATE: I got access into one of the husband's email accounts. (I know that sounds shitty, but police have asked to me to help locate him any way I can) and he is responding to gay Craigslist's ads, offering to fuck them for a place to stay..

And now I'm left wondering if our entire relationship and marriage was just a sham. My heart completely sank reading those emails..

I go in tomorrow to meet with an attorney to see what steps to take next in the divorce process. I also have a meeting today with a therapist. So I'm trying to take the steps I need to take care of myself and my baby.