Okay so I just need to share my story, as iv kept it in for a while now on 25th December 2016 I found out I was pregnant I was so happy I called my mum up as I was crying on the floor she thought I had hurt my self, I told her to go look in the bathroom so she did she looked at me smiled and I burst out crying  we just sat there hugging I then ft my partner and he cried, I was so happy! I had been trying for 6+ months so the next day ( Boxing Day) I went to Morrisons and bought a clear blue test and pregnacare tablets, everything was comfirmed anyways fast forward a week I started bleeding just before I got into the bath so I rang my mum ( we love in different city's) I was in absolute pieces I dint know what to do so I rang 111 and they told me to go straight to the hospital and they checked me checked my urine and hgg levels and everything seemed fine, apart from a little blood in my urine they booked me in to a early scan on the 3rd of January, we went I had my scan done and they couldn't find anything, I knew then my worst nightmare had just come true, the nurse began to tell me I looked at my fiancé and her and I just burst out crying. I had to walk out past a room full of pregnant women crying my heart out. I swear I broke down in the stairs of the hospital if it wasn't for Amir ( my fiancé) I would of been a complete wreck I cried and cried and cried until I physically couldn't cry any more, no one knows how much I cried that day I was only 6 weeks along but that was my baby! I never felt it kick or even get to heard his/hers heart beat! But I knew they was there they was a part of me! We called him/her peanut 💕💙 it does get easier over time but for about a week I was a state I couldn't eat don't talk hardly slept! But I had my family and my fiancé to support me and help me through it and if it wasn't for them I dread to think how I would be, don't let anyone ever tell you well it wasn't a baby it was only a featus! That 'featus' was my baby! And no one knows how much I cried ! Thank you for taking the time to read my story and I'm sending all the baby dust I have to every woman who's lost a child, or are trying to convince! 💕