Ok this is a super personally question but when did you first go? Like I'm 22, married, and of course sexually active with my husband. But I am freaking terrified of going. When I was a teenager my mother used to threaten me with going if I had sex and tell me all these awful things. I feel like she's scarred me for life (which she has with certain things). Ik I need to go but I'm so nervous, my anxiety makes me sick when I think about it.