legit in tears ! tmi tmi tmi tmi

Brooke 🎀
This is a tmi post!! Cause of the pic. 
I have posted it before. So just be aware it is tmi. 
I have been bleeding like this really bad today, I soak through my undies through my pad in an hour.. I have been in so much pain today, but I sucked work up.. cause I need the money. My girlfriend of four years, who doesn't help pay rent or any bills, basically lives here for free... cause when I do bring up money, it's a fighting match.
It's an abusive toxic relationship.. but it's really hard for me to leave it. 
Moral of the story.. I came home, really sore and bleeding badly with my period.
I call Telstra for about 15 minutes to sort my wifi out .. by this point my girlfriend is pulling into the garage , as she finished work. She walks in, gives me a kiss on the cheek and walks into the room and sits on her phone playing her game!
That's all she ever does .. she hasn't asked me if I'm ok.. if I'm sore or what not . I get nothing even though I did sent her the pic of my period everywhere cause it was really bad.. 
She's been home for an hour by this point and she is still sitting on her phone playing a game.. hasn't yet asked me how I'm feeling or nothing .. so I tell her to get off her game .. it's all she ever does. Is play that game.. I preceded to tell her how she hasn't once asked me how I'm feeling or anything , I get upset and I go for a drive .. for then for her to tell me she's tryin to find me, and blah blah blah. 
Tells me to come home, and what not. So an hour later I go home to find her in the room PLAYING her fucking game!!! On the bed! I went to the lounge and I waited 30 minutes .. but she still hasn't come out..
By this point I'm sooooooo upset. 
So I walk in and tell her.. and it escalates! 
She gets really nasty and sarcastic .. I'm legit so over this shit.. why do I always feel stuck in this shitty relationship.
I do so much for her .. and get nothing back!!!!!