jealous yet excited?

Carrie
I got pregnant for the first time last month, we misscarried 1 week later. It didn't really hit me at first bc knowing I was pregnant was so short lived, and didn't have much time to let all the changes that were soon to come really sink in. Now that a couple weeks have passed, I do feel more sad and more of an actual loss. Nothing out of control though, like real depression, it's just hitting me more lately. 
Keeping up with Glow though, reading everyone else's posts on their pregnancies and especially announcements and BFP's just get me to jealous, but also excited to get there again. This experience really made me realize how much I want this and how ready I am to be a mother. 
Does anyone else feel like this? At first seeing all these kinds of happy posts from other people made it worse for me, but now I use it as inspiration and motivation to keep a positive attitude. I've never wanted to get my period so badly so that I can get through this cycle and start trying again. My gyno told me to wait 2 full cycles before trying again to ensure that my lining builds up all nice and "fluffy" again, but I've got to be honest there's no way in hell I can wait that long lol. Especially since my cycles are 35 days long.
Just sharing my thoughts and feelings, hope someone else out there can relate ❤ and baby dust to all!