Baby. Fever.

Usually I can ignore it and talk myself out of it but it's getting so bad! I know I am nowhere ready for a baby for multiple reasons (single/not committed to anyone, not financially stable, still living with my parents, I'm only 20, etc.). I know that it would be wrong of me to bring a child into this world right now, for me. But, oh boy, would I love that child more than anything. I would give my child the world and then more!

I partially think that part of it is jealousy... I've got a younger sister who is about to give birth and I've often wondered why she was the one who had to get pregnant when I'm, honestly, better off than her. She's in high school with no job. I know it's wrong of me but I can't help it at times and I feel like I have no one to talk to. I'm not asking for anyone to comment or even read this, it's mostly just for me to get it out. Again....