I have only had sex with one person, my lovely boyfriend. I adore him and he means the world to me. I'm 19 and we got together when we were 15. We jumped into things pretty soon. We had sex for the first time when we were 15. I didn't regret it though I know that's quite young. I have always liked having sex with him. I love being close with him. I faced a lot of neglect and abuse as a child by my parents. I now no longer speak to either of them. I just have a great connection with my boyfriend. I enjoyed the sex, yet it always almost seemed hassling. I always consented and enjoyed it, but something just felt a little off. I was quite concerned how the sex was for him and if he really liked me and really thought I was attractive. I spent years struggling with low self esteem and depression. Lately I have been feeling great. I cut out the last of the toxic people in my life and my boyfriend and I are buying a house together close to his family. Just yesterday we had sex and it was like no other. I felt completely different and almost like it was a liberated feeling. I have never been more confident and in love with my body like I was yesterday. I was always comfortable having sex with him, but now that has just increased by so much and I cannot be happier. It's really a great feeling. Anyone else have an experience like this? I'd love to read.

PS sorry if this is disorganized. It was just kind of a stream of consciousness about my sort of new found sexuality.