I'm going NUTS!!! TWW

I'm unsure as to how many dpo I am.. I took opk'S this month, had to reschedule my HSG due to lack of communication.. so I figured we would wait until after the procedure well with the communication mishap we continued to "TRY" I guess ... now I'm idk about a week out from AF and I'm a wreck.. it started today my inner addicted me is like pee on a stick pee on a stick.. but then the sane me is like... we didn't succeed this month don't bother relax and wait... it's our 1st month using the suppositories and asprin regimen.... UGHHHH... I JUST wish there was some magical pill to wipe my memory until the TWW is up and a timer/buzzer goes off like hey you can take a test now.. OMG this is stressful... and tough... don't wanna miss the eggy!! 😩😩😴😴