It can be hard. Ttc after the death of a child. My baby girl wasn't born yet. But diagnosed with turners syndrome at 14 wks along. From that day forward I was told I'd have to get thespecial testing with my other children that I had with her. I was also told that she'd have 1% chance of survival and probably not make it past 18 wks. They kept telling me to abort her. But I was determined. To let her survive as long as she wanted to. To hold on to hope. Around wk 18. The doctors were already impressed at how far she made it despite her conditions. The fluid in her lungs, the cystic hygroma, the failing heart, having no bladder or kidneys. Everything had gotten worse. Again aborting was brought up and again I refused. She deserved a chance. Around the 22nd week. I went to my regular OB appointment they did another ultrasound to see how she was. This time. Even though deep down I knew, I was in for a heart broken surprise. ( I remeber Around the 21wk pregnant. I sat in the bathtub and cried. I told her she can let go. It was okay. ) And the ultrasound showed there was no heart beat. Silence. It wasn't till then that I realized she was finally at peace. Mothers of angels. I have felt your pain. I've walked it to. But no matter what. They will always be with you 👼🏼❤️