So I've had a crush on a guy named Jesse for 4 years. It comes and goes, but every year I tell him how I feel and every year he just brushes me aside. We dated on and off for about two years, but he ended it for good two years ago. I've dated once since then, but it was not healthy for me. I've always felt like I'm not good enough or like the person can do way better than me.

I've always struggled with self-confidence issues, and it's even caused me to self harm in the past. It has gotten worse over this year. I've almost fallen back into harming myself and I'm getting so lost in my own thoughts that I will cry either because I'm thinking of him or because I'm not good enough. I'm tired of feeling this way and if anyone has any advise (other than seeing a therapist/shrink) please share!!