My heart is breaking

So i just counted, and we are on our 35th cycle of ttc.
Im going slightly crazy..
A lot of my friends are pregnant right now and its breaking my heart.
I mean i am happy for them, but hearing how hard it was that it took two cycles to conceive i just makes me want to lay on the floor kicking and screaming.
And the other part of my friends are nowhere near ttc and just doesnt understand it at all.
Literally got no one to talk to..