Was I pregnant?

(TMI) I had sex using only the pull out as protection when I was at the peak of my fertility (got cum all over my vagina and probably in). I got an early results test and took it when I would have been 4 weeks along and think I got a vvfl. Few days later I started spotting one night (I have never spotted in my entire life), light pink, and a little bit of brown blood. Nothing more all night. Next morning I went to the bathroom and had several big red clots like I've never had before in a period. Then more clots later. The next three days I bled like a period and then it stopped (I usually have week long periods). Then about three weeks later I had my period (it's consistently four weeks). Does this sound like an early miscarriage or just a whacked out period?
I have just been struggling so much because I feel this sense of loss and such deep hurt and sadness but I also can't bring myself to believe I truly could have been pregnant. 
Please tell me from what I have described what you think. Please no negative comments. Maybe it's silly to want answers so much but I've been trying for weeks now to get it out of my mind but I can't. I have been so depressed and empty feeling. 😢
Thank you all in advance. 💗