first time....

ummm... so me and my boyfriend attempted our first time.. But.. but i freaked out 😔 because when I was smaller I was touched on ways I shouldn't if bee.... And today we tried but I got scared and freaked out midway through I cried and punched him... But but he stopped right away and made me feel safe.. I just feel so terrible cause I wanted everything to be right... But I feel like I screwed everything up.. But keeps saying that I didn't and that he loved it either way..