Hate everything about myself.

I really have no clue why my mother even kept me! I'm almost 22, just out of college without a job, just terminated a pregnancy, and can't do anything right. If I would have kept the baby I would be homeless right now. I know I am smart but there's only so far knowledge can take you. I want money before I bring a child into this cruel world! But apparently that makes me a bad person because I terminated. They don't care about what my reasons to wait. They just see the fact that I DID abort. Not the fact that I don't want to be one of those women that relies on welfare and food stamps just to get by... (not judging anyone BTW, I just don't want to go through all that). Sorry about the random ass rant.

RANT OVER!