Whhhhhhy. Do I still feel pregnant?

Why do I torture Myself? I so feel pregnant and I know um just disappointing myself. Don't judge me but I just finished AF five days ago. She wasn't my normal AF. But I still feel like I could be pregnant. I know its not possible right? But I still feel pregnant. I have the sore boobs, cramping, nausea, headaches, back pain. I know u must be saying just take a test. But if u knew how much money I spent on test prior to you would shame me. Who am I kidding your probably shaming me now from this silly post. But honestly I can't help how my body feels and what my mind feels/Wants so damn bad. I'm posting anonymously because I don't want people to judge me by face. Anyways thank for reading my rant.