Missing your ex

So I'm missing my "first love" like hell right now and have been for the past few days. We were together waaay back when I was 15 and we gave each other our virginities. He ended up screwing me over because I guess we were just dumb ass kids. Last time we spoke was a year ago when I bitched him out on the phone. I regret getting so angry with him instead of just talking it out and I've been missing him terribly. I'm probably the last person he wants to speak to... but I miss his company. I'll always love him but I don't want to be with him, I just want him to be my best friend again. Should I message him? Do you ladies have any ideas? Please help 😭