So my boyfriend of 8 months and close friend much longer before that, broke up with me.. He wants me to get my depression under control before we try again.. So I decided to just write him something to let him know im trying. Is this too desperate?

okay.. so here is what I need to tell you... to start, im sorry.. im sorry that I pushed and pushed and pushed you away so much.. I think because I actually had happiness in my life, my depression got to me and made it worse. I understand that it was really hard on you to deal with your own life, problems, and stress, along with me not being so stable. I want to reassure you of my love for you.. And im going to do that by telling you how thankful I am that you are a part of my life. You have ALWAYS been there for me.. You have shown me what love & happiness is.. You love me, even with my demons.. You still compliment me when I believe the lies that my depression tell me.. You have made a HUGE impact on me, Tyberias. You made me happy. You've changed my life and that's scary. It scares me a lot. It scares me that what we have might be done.. So to help not only myself get better... But to help our relationship, I'm gonna be more aware.. Aware of you loving me.. So that I don't push you away from me again.. I'm not going to be rude or not accepting of your compliments.. I don't always see the good side of myself (you already kinda know that...) I'm going to be more optimistic and try to be happier.. And at my dr appointment, im gonna talk to my dr about antidepressants.. I want you to know, I am sorry and I love you, a lot. This breakup has been a wake up call to me.. I hope we can work this through...