My husband & I have only been married a year. Before him, I had been in 3 long-term relationships all which the man turned out to be physically and emotionally abusive. When I met my husband, he was kind & respectful. He treated me well & did nice things for me. I enjoyed being with him. He proposed after a year & I happily accepted. We had a heartbreaking miscarriage which kind of took a toll on our relationship because I became severely depressed and shut him out. (This was during our engagement) I wanted to wait a while before getting married, mostly because I wanted a big beautiful wedding and wanted time to plan. But eventually we became pregnant again (I was thrilled!) so we got married right away in a small, beach wedding because I didn't want to be showing in the wedding. We have a beautiful, healthy baby now & have been married 13 months. I am a stay at home mom while he works. The worst part of my day is when he comes home. We have nothing in common. He is still kind & a very nice man. But I am not in love with him. It shocks me to even write those words & admit it. In a fight recently he told me that he loves me more than he loves our child. I know that's how it "should" be, but I could not say the same back to him because it's not true. I love my child more than anything and much more than I love him. Although we are both Christian, we came from different Christian denominations. He has dove deeper into his since we got married & now refers to himself as a "radical Pentecostal". He spends hours alone praying & speaking in tongues & will only listen to gospel music & blasts it loudly around the house when he's home. It drives me crazy. I am to embarrassed to tell anyone how I feel because I feel like I rushed into this marriage & made a huge mistake. I also feel bad complaining because he isn't abusive or unfaithful or anything like that. So I stick it out. But I fantasize about leaving all the time. I have no where to go. No job, no money. A divorce would mean sharing custody & giving up my baby for days. We don't have sex. I don't want anything to do with him. We are like roommates at home & he doesn't even mind. He knows I'm unhappy but he doesn't care. He doesn't believe in divorce so he just ignores the problem. He also hates confrontation. I've suggested counseling but we did premarital counseling before we got married (after the miscarriage) & he didn't have a good experience so now doesn't want to go again. I wonder if I have postpartum depression. I just want to leave so bad. I'm so unhappy.